In the place,
where I learn
Sense of guilt

october, 2023

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Sometimes at night,
I suddenly become sad -
only by looking to the moonlight

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I left my skin at home
Take a bath - baptized by the shore
Tearing apart your pretty picture
I prefer seeing a ghost

Come with me, runaway from all this mess

( I can’t promise anything except to give myself whole heartedly )

Gonna live free -
with the soil under our feet
Breathe the same air as those big tree
And to love each other like the sun who give us the heat

In my wildest dream,

I hear the cotton speaks - 

about how lovely you are

I love her silently -

cause this world too crowded

For a people like me

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And when nothing I could think of -

I begin to pray -  let us love, let use love

until no more words to explain,
until nothing left to be complaint

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But time want us to be free

I promise to keep it cool, even it’s more than forty degree

Our seed will be safe under this big tree

And soon I will go over the sea

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And she greet me with kisses

Gently touch - flesh to flesh

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At the deepest

of your heart, I know

You feel it too

If I tell you -

I’m poisonous and mess,

would you love me still?

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Another hangover,

another skin I barely know when I sober

Some went away before the sunset over

The rest, too pretty to not be a lover

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In the night, when the light of
the room started to blur -
I found your wet lips -
tasted little bit of lipstick

with all this mess
Cigarette butt everywhere
And still spelling your name

Keep my tears
For our last candlelight dinner
And let all the part of my bones
Become your prayer

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I miss your perfume,
but smell of your flesh better

I miss chaos inside your bag,
but a mess in your hair enough for me

I miss golden ring in your middle finger,
but your dirty nails - I make a poem about it

I miss your ankle bracelet,
but seeing you barefoot make me smile

I miss tank top you wear when you sleep,
but your mango shaped breast gives such heaven to me

I never photographed it one by one
But it always there,
It still on the some place I can’t explain where it is,
but I know it by heart - what it is

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